RHYTHM in my HEART

Target!!

2012-01-09T19:10:00.002+08:00

Well, as usual I don't have any new year resolution as I can hardly meet the targets. However, I had set myself some targets this year.

Since I am in Actuarial field, I can't escape from study and exam until I become a qualified Actuary. It's sad to say that I am far behind my colleagues not only in term of papers but also salary. Actually, my only concern is $$$, haha... No kidding, how do you feel when you work as hard as others and OT more then the rest but your pay is ridiculously lower than the others due to less paper you have? Yup, I have been wasting 1 year silly-ly for work without any return. It's a wake-up call for me.

So, my only goal this year is to pass as many exams as I can. My targets are:
1) Finish FAP modules (at least until IA)
2) Pass MLC (hopefully and praying hard i can pass the May's paper)
3) Pass C (a bit hard to pass by this year but no harm trying)

Oh exam exam exam, I hate exams. $$$, you are my motivation. Fighting!

My Mung Beans Plant

2011-12-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Wow, see how the plant grew in less than 24 hours time.Amazing?

Taken on 28/12/2011 9.42pm

Taken on 29/12/2011 8.35pm

Merry Christmas...HoHoHo!!

2011-12-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

Couch Potato

2011-12-18T16:10:00.002+08:00

Another picture drawn by me using Paint. It's kinda ugly though but who cares. Lol...

Seriously, I am a couch potato.

My favourite past time is lazying at home watching dramas / variety shows and snacking at the same time.
No wander my butt is so big. >.<

Is that a Compliment?

2011-12-14T23:52:00.004+08:00

Before my boss left office today, he approached our team, carrying his backpack. While discussing about some work related matters with one of my colleague, he suddenly pointed at me and said "She is the most hard working Angel". I "stunted" for awhile and laughed, thinking "really?" Haha..Well, perhaps "yes" for last time because I used to leave office very late. I was the last or last 2 or 3 person to leave office almost everyday. After that, I started to feel a bit guilty as I started to be less "hard-working" recently and leave office quite early since I would like to focus more on my exam. Unlike last time, I would leave even though I can't finish my work because I realized work will NEVER finish.

On second thought, was it a compliment?? Hmm..

On a separate occasion, I THINK I got another compliment this morning. To get a signature from a very "Important" person this morning, I went to a different floor, which I seldom go. The room is located at the very end of the whole office. That means I need to pass by a lot of people's workspaces in order to reach there. Since it is an open office, everyone will look at you when you walk by. That floor is basically occupied by our system vendor, can say mostly programmer, so lots of young guys. On don't know the "n" time I walked by today (went there for a few times since the person is not around), I heard a few guys whispering : "有气质，有气质" (translation: shall I say "有气质" means charismatic or attitude). I think they were talking about me. LOL...I did not turn over and I pretended I did not hear that. Haha...Or may be I am to "perasan" / self-satified...kekeke...

It Stops!

2011-12-11T15:56:00.004+08:00

I can't remember the exact date I got this watch but it has been with me for more than 6 years. It was a gift from my dad, no special occasion. Just like anything and everything, it finally came to it's end (for the first time since I owned it). I mean it's battery life. Not today though, actually it has been dead since 12/11/2011, 11.28pm. Erm, exact time should be 11.18pm since I set it to be 10 minutes earlier than the real time. Haha. Oh, it's about 1 month now and I still haven't change it's battery. I am so not used to not wearing a watch whenever I go out as I feel that my hand is so empty. I still feel like having no sense of time without a watch although I can refer to mobile phone. Ok, that's all my watch-less feeling. ".)

Souvenirs

2011-11-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

It's year end and it's a travelling season! Got a lots of souvenirs from friends and colleagues lately. Thanks!

These are from my house-mates!

Krabi

China

Taiwan

As for my colleagues,the trend is to buy food and snacks as souvenirs. We have food and snacks from Thailand, Bali, Hong Kong, Macau, China, Penang, Kuala Selangor, Melaka and etc

For some reason (which i don't know), all the edible souvenirs are left on my table. Part of my table is being occupied by foods. =.= Poor me! Some people walk by and asked: "eh, you sell those food? snack stalls?" =.= Basically, i ate all those 'souvenirs' the most. The reason?

1) They can be reached easily. No need to walk at all.

2) My colleagues want me to accompany them eat as they are too shy.

3) I have the urge to eat when i see people eat.

No wonder, i put on so much 'fat' lately.

Cleaning 101: Fan

2011-11-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

I have been freaking lazy lately. I would spend my weekend lying on the bed doing nothing and sleeping. Waking up just to eat, snacking, watch drama and online is my habbit now. Not sure since when. My room get messier and messier, clothes left un-holded after drying. Aiks, no eyes to see myself. No wonder i got fatter and fatter these days. Actually, i have been thinking of cleaning and tidying up my room for some time already but my laziness keeps holding me back.

Guess what? Today is Monday and it is a Public holiday (Awal Muharram). As usual, i stay at home, my room to be exact, wasting time. Really unproductive >.< After wasting half of my day doing nothing productive, i come to my sense finally. "NO. I cannot continue to be like this" I said to myself.

Ok, where shall i start? Perhaps, i should just sweep the floor. And so i off the fan. Wow, the fan is so damn black and dusty. I think i haven't wipe it for some time already. Oops!

Alright, i'll start with the fans. :S It might be easy for a lot of people to clean it but it ain't easy for a shawty like me. Oops! I mean shorty. Well, never mind, these may help! haha

Stacking 4 stools together

Look at the dust!

Done with the first paddle. Ouch, my neck hurts ! 2 paddles to go...

After!

Finally i'm done! Squeaky Clean >.^

Next, i proceeded to sweep my room and the living room. Then, i changed my bed sheet and threw the rubbish. Ok, tired~ Rest awhile only mop the floor. After awhile, i changed my mind. Let's continue tomorrow. XP haha...Lazy me!

P/S: Sorry for wasting your time to read my junk post...haha

Change 1.0

2011-11-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

Lately, i have been thinking deeply about myself, my personality, my taste, my everything, Yes, i am self-reflecting. And, i realized i have changed a lot in these 1 year + time.

Insomnia...again

2011-10-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

Aikss...i'm having insomnia for 3 consecutive days...not joking, it has been 3 days and i'm not sure it will continue today! T.T Dark circle is getting darker and obvious...

Although today is a public holiday (Deepavali), i couldn't sleep well last night. Not sure why, I think most probably is due to work stress. I'm going to have my consecutive leaves and going outstation very soon but I can't feel the joy yet. I just can't go off with peace of mind.

To compensate myself for working late and hard last few days, I treat myself with my favourite breakfast, Subway! Yummy...

Chicken Slice + Egg with a cup of white coffee

Ducky? Chic?

2011-10-23T02:50:00.000+08:00

Ducky or Chic?

Lady Bird

2011-09-07T21:44:00.003+08:00

Long time never play with Paint already XD...start with a simple one...hehe

I drew lady bird because my sis keeps on saying she wants Lady bird lantern. So i drew one and pasted on her FB wall. Haha...

trUst

2011-08-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

A lot of people said I'm naive, just because i choose to trust people.

Ya, I always choose to trust the people around me. I've never think of people betraying me or trapping me. Or maybe I'm very lucky to have trust-able people around me?

I know, i know. There are all sorts of people in this world. You may not know what others think, what're their motives. But, I am not as naive as people think of me. It's just that i rather choose to trust people than thinking how people take advantage on me.

My thinking is quite simple: As long as i treat people nicely, others will also treat me nicely. I might be wrong but I really hope so. Anyway, I got nothing to loose.

I was born this way!!

2011-08-02T22:51:00.003+08:00

Nobody in this world is perfect. Neither you nor I.

Yes, I have lots weaknesses and flaws. So do you!

I am not pretty or have a perfect body.

I am indecisive.

I am slow when come to doing things.

I am a careless person who always make mistakes.

I am moody sometimes.

I am lazy.

I am .....

But hey, that's me. Those weaknesses and flaws make me who I am.

I accept my weaknesses, my flaws and myself. I am who I am.

Quote from Lady Gaga's "Born this way": I am beautiful in my way cause god makes no mistake...I am on the right track, Baby... I was BORN THIS WAY!

Just be yourself, accept who you are! And, you will find yourself much more happier.

My dilemma

2011-07-09T19:07:00.002+08:00

A song that i like recently by Justin Bieber's girlfried, Selena Gomez. No MV for this song, so only can share the lyrics.

Mid twenties / Quarter life crisis?

2011-07-05T21:54:00.005+08:00

I have been feeling miserable and depress lately, ever since a few hours before my birthday last week. Nothing interest me. I find my life meaningless. I don't know what i want in my life. I feel lost. I just don't know why. My world is so grey....Arghhh!

I suspect i'm having quarter life crisis!!

According to Wikipedia, the characteristic of quarter life crisis may include:

confronting one's own mortality [Nope]
insecurity concerning ability to love oneself, let alone another person [check]
insecurity regarding present accomplishments [check]
re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships [a little bit]
lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy [romantic relationships perhaps...haha]
disappointment with one's job [check]
nostalgia for university, college, high school, middle school or elementary school life [Sometimes]
tendency to hold stronger opinions [Hmmm...]
boredom with social interactions [check]
loss of closeness to high school and college friends [high school friends maybe]
financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unexpectedly high cost of living) [check, well still enough but definitely no extra]
loneliness, depression and suicidal tendencies [check, but don't worry, no suicidal tendencies]
desire to have children [Nonono..not so fast]
a sense that others are doing better than oneself [check]
frustration with social skills [sometimes]

Hmm..mostly check, I guess i am...

Little Surprise ^.^

2011-06-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

Reluctantly, i went to work this morning as I was having Tuesday Blue. No Monday Blue this week because i took leave to rest at home for my birthday.

I was late as usual, but i still walked lazily towards my workstation. As i opened my drawer, i saw an unfamiliar paper bag sitting in the place where i normally keep my bag. I explored it curiously and saw a note inside. Oh, it was a birthday gift from my manager. =] I was really surprise because he is my new manager, whom i have only known for less than 2 months.

Well, it was not about the gift that made me happy but the 'heart' that touched me. It made my day.

By the way, I feel really lucky and glad that i always meet with good, kind and friendly supervisors.

627

2011-06-27T02:32:00.001+08:00

Hmm..this blog has been abandoned for quite some time. Actually, i have a lot to write sometimes but just not on the right time and the sudden urge to write vanished after awhile.

Well, what is 627? Nothing special, just my birthday!

I have my first 'official' celebration 10days ago with my colleagues but this celebration was not done on purpose. Supposedly, we were having our department's welcome lunch for a few new staffs in TGI Friday. So, they took this opportunity to celebrate my birthday concurrently. Haha. But i did have a surprise when i saw a cake in front of me out of sudden. You know what was written on the cake? " Happy birthday Fatty Angie". I was like : "......" & =.= Another surprise?

Anyway, really thanks to my colleagues who remembered that my birthday was approaching and told the boss to celebrate for me.

Unofficial? Neway Karaoke is having birthday month promotion, that is free one head charge. So my colleagues took this opportunity to go sing K. And birthday promotion comes with a free champagne if there are more than 6 head counts. I did not how to react when Neway played the birthday song as they served the champagne because my birthday was 2 weeks away and they didn't plan to celebrate birthday for me. Another week later, we went to sing K again to celebrate getting bonus and to get the free head charge. These 2 sing k session can't count as celebration bah! haha...

I had my second 'special' celebration yesterday. What so special? Because my dear coursemates made me to bake my own birthday cup cakes. Haha. According to Lee Wen, they are tiring of dirty celebration like pouring water, flour and etc and baking own birthday cake is another type of torture. Haha... To tell you the truth, i did enjoyed this 'torturing' process. Those cupcakes may not be the most beautiful cake i have in my life but they are special and memorable one. Luckily they are edible and the taste is not too bad.

We started our day with the said "legendary" ikan bakar in Jalan Bellamy before baking the cakes. Only 1 stall opened that day and we just gave it a try since we had no choice. As soon as we reached and made our order, it started pouring cats and dogs. Wow, the rain was too heavy until we had no place to sit. What a 'wonderful' day to have ikan bakar, huh! In the end we had to dine our sotong and ikan bakar in their kitchen :S and the dishes were cold. We did felt a bit disappointed though.

After baking the cup cakes, we headed to Kota Damansara to have our Mexican Dinner, which was chosen by Kai You. The interesting part is we couldn't find the restaurant. Lol. So we had to change the venue to a Japanese restaurant in Sunway Giza. I guess this was another surprise that they wanted to give me. haha. Anyway, really glad that my coursemates came to celebrate and ate those cupcakes with me. Oh ya, thanks for the gift. =)

Well, that's all the memorable celebration i have this year.

Thank You guys and gals! You know who you are...

你是属于哪种人？

2011-04-12T01:19:00.003+08:00

Stealing this from a junior's blog...haha..

It's damn accurate for me...try it yourself and see if it's accurate for you as well.

Which type of person are you?

1. 你有吃早餐的习惯？有~~2 没有~~3

2. 你养过宠物？有~~7 没有~~3

3. 你有工作经验？有~~7 没有~~4

4. 你有好的运动细胞？有~~8 没有~~5

5. 你现在正在减肥？是~~9 不是~~6

6. 你认为看电影一定要吃零食？是~~9 不是~~10

7. 你觉得地球上出现过外星人？有~~8 没有~~11

8. 你曾有过很多恋情？是~~12 不是~~9

9. 你很少看漫画书？是~~13 不是~~10

10. 你到KTV就会唱个不停？是~~13 不是~~14

11. 你喜欢吃三明治？喜欢~~14 不喜欢~~12

12. 你会自创不同的菜式？会~~15 不会~~13

13. 你很会画插画？是~~A型不是~~B型

14. 你喜欢格子图案？喜欢~~C型不喜欢~~D型

15. 你很想出国上学？是~~E型不是F型

16. 你曾参加过某明星的后援会？有~~G型没有~~H型

A型人~~

不管是熟人还是陌生人，你都会主动与对方交谈，你给人的感觉很活泼也很大方且并不唐突，所以你并不惹人讨厌，你给人的第一个印象不错，你的思维过于活跃，所以身边总是很多朋友，但知心的并没有几个，你太贪玩，表面看似和谁都能相约吃饭，逛街，做一些亲密的事，这样会让你真正的好朋友怀疑到底与你之间的友谊是哪种，对方可能不能确定与你要好的程度，而如果对方又是不喜欢表达的人，这种情绪会越积越多，到最后不可负荷时，爆发出来，可能受伤的反而是你。所以注意一下自己的表现，你应该对不管是友情还是其他感情，都有鲜明的态度，这样才不会有不必要的误会和遗憾。

B型人~~

有你在的地方一定有欢笑，你善良，调皮，任性，霸道与贴心。你看起来活泼好动，但实际内心深处，你有些自卑而自负，你希望自己能把事情做到最好，你很在乎别人对你的评价，你的性格像小孩，单纯直接，情绪化，喜怒哀乐写在脸上，你没有心机，但也缺少些自我保护的能力，你表面看来很容易相处，但想要走进你的内心世界其实并不容易，你需要人家的鼓励，包容，宠爱和肯定，其实你也常常自我反省，你希望自己能做到起码80%的完美，但你似乎没那个毅力，所以你的情绪变化无常，一定是被这些因素困扰的。

C型人~~

你是择善固执的坚持派，有人与你聊天，你可以天马星空的聊，但你不会主动找对方聊天。你很有原则也很被动，你总是习惯呆在自己的世界里，你在朋友的眼里是比较难深交的人，大家感觉你和人交往，总是点到为止，你心里的那片天地不对外开放，也很保护自己的私隐。

D 型人~~

你是积极努力认真派，你对自己要求很高，但一旦遇到和你脾气相似的人，你们就很有惺惺相惜的感觉，因而相谈甚欢。你虽然表面看起来有些严肃，但是其实你单纯善良，你的想法总是积极的，你有很强的自我调节能力，所以即使你遇到苦难，也能很好的处理，你在朋友是最乖的朋友，因为当你真心喜欢一个人的时候，你的贴心和用心会不自然的流露出来，你个朋友的关系看似平淡，但其实双方心里的挂念，彼此都知道。

E型人~~

你开朗没心机，你对朋友很大方，也很周到你很舍得在朋友身上花钱，你看起来漫不经心，实际上你做事很有条理。一旦你要做，就会做得很快，可是往往你懒于去做，你很喜欢说话，你喜欢与别人交流意见，尤其是自己了解的事，你比较好强，可是那种好强并没给他人带来困扰。

F型人~~

你的废话不多，你喜欢观察，不管是人还是事物，你的心思慎密，眼光独到，你总能看出别人看不出的细节，你做事很有计划，这让朋友和你相处起来十分安心，因为你不仅把自己处理得很稳妥，空闲时，还能帮朋友做一些小事，你能掌握别人的想法，你的观点总是比较有建材，也很特别，你很理智和现实，你不喜欢天马行空的乱想，你觉得那样没意义。

G型人~~

你不喜欢想得太远，只要眼下快乐就好，你没什么想像力，你每天关心的是今天要做什么，怎么做。你的生活很简单，正常吃，喝，睡，闷了找人聊点无关要紧的事情，把事情打发走。你对生活中的快乐与烦恼看得很开，你是个很容易满足的人。

H型人~~

你是和善亲切自然派，你生性豪爽，在你心里没什么过不去的事！你不自卑，不自负也不自私，人生对你而言跟玩似的，困难和不安到你那里，很快就消失，朋友与你一起很舒服，看起来对什么都不在乎的你，会把这种无所谓带给朋友，让对方也能很快走出低痱的情绪

Impromptu presentation

2011-03-17T11:55:00.001+08:00

Let me share the new experience i got today.

I was asked to attend a meeting today. This meeting was held to discuss the project kickoff timeline and tasks of respective departments.

Since this product is handled by me and my colleague was too busy with other task, i was required to attend the meeting alone. However, i have been busy with other task, so i have never properly go through this product. I just roughly read through the benefits of this product a day before.

Ok. People from respective departments started to fill up the meeting room and someone called out "let's start". But no one actually started talking. The one who held the meeting is quite new. Then, suddenly someone said let's get actuarial to talk about the product feature since it was never been discussed before.

Then i said and laughed: I was never told to do so in this meeting. The person who held the meeting looked at me and said let's discuss this first.

I was like: "huh, really? Me? Shit!" I have never prepared anything before the meeting and i'm not familiar with the product yet.

Everyone turned to me and waited for me to start. I have no choice and there was no escape road. I don't even have slides to present. Everyone was holding the product specification documents that prepared by my colleague and i have never seen that before. Luckily, i did bring along other related documents.

And so i started my presentation. I just looked at my documents and simply crapped. Haha...

The hardest part was not to do the talking but to answer all sorts of questions. I just pretended like I knew very well when answering questions but actually i was not too sure. For those questions that are too hard, i just replied : i'll get back to you. LOL.

When i was almost done, my boss came in suddenly. Good, because they all turned to him and asked the questions that i can't answer. Somebody joked: you secretly text your boss for help huh? LOL.

Although my presentation was quite terrible this morning, it wasn't too bad after all. It was impromptu anyway. At least i have gained a new experience today.

Life. Ups and DOWNs

2011-03-10T22:00:00.005+08:00

Life is hard. Ups and downs. I'm at the down side now.

Having a lot of stress recently.

Last week, i received a really bad news from home. Unexpected thing just happened. The worst thing was I could not do anything to help out.

Yesterday was really a bad day for me. Everything i did was not right. I kept it cool.

And today? Not smooth either. But i still smile and talked nicely to people.

I have been staying positive all this while. Just laugh it off and forget about it. Be optimistic.

But sometimes, it is very hard to stay cool all the time.

I can't take it anymore. I am feeling down now. Feel like getting a warm big hug. Any free hugs? >.<

How is my tomorrow like? I hope it is a good one but i don't think so.

Anyway, life goes on. Cheers! Stay happy always!

How clumsy can you be?

2011-03-09T22:49:00.004+08:00

I admit I am a clumsy person. Always forget this and that, do all sorts of careless mistakes, blah blah blah...You should know this if you know me well.

Well, today will be marked as the most blur moment in my life so far.

The story is like this:

I was out of cash so i planned to withdraw money today. So, i just grabbed my card and went to ATM machine before going for lunch. I performed the transaction as usual while chatting with my colleague. So far so good.

After i chose the amount i want, i was asked to key in my ATM pin. I tried but the pin no. is incorrect. I was very sure that was the correct pin so i keyed in again. But, it was still wrong. Then, i tried again and end up the card was retained by the ATM machine.

Huh, what's wrong? Am I that blur till i forgot my ATM pin? Impossible bah! Well, i thought may be I was too hungry as i just had a packet of biscuit this morning before my VEE exam and nothing went in my stomach for the next 5 hours. I blamed my blur-ness to the hunger.

Next, i called the bank customer service to inform them about the fate of my ATM card so they can disable the old card and reissue a new one for me. Done. I was going to my collect my new ATM card at the nearest branch after back from lunch.

Oh wait, this is not the end of story yet.

I think i got my conscience back after I had my lunch.

OH MY GOD! The card that had been eaten by the ATM machine is not an ATM card. It is a CREDIT CARD. I realized it suddenly and I tried to tell my colleagues, but i kept on laughing till unable to speak. I should have sensed something amiss when I was asked to key in the pin no. only after select the amount to withdraw. But, it was too late.

The BEST part is, I have lost BOTH of my cards. ATM card has been blocked and credit card has been retained. =.= One word: "Excellent"

If it happens on you, how will you react in this situation? For me, I just laugh! Laugh off my silliness. Ya, i tend to laugh at myself at this kind of silly situation. I don't know what reaction should i give other than laugh. And my colleague said: "You still can laugh at this moment."

Net loss for this clumsiness?

Cost of reissuing new ATM card = RM12

Cost of replacing new credit card = RM25

So, this lesson has cost me RM37

Luckily, i set different pin for ATM card and credit card, else RM50 will be charged for withdrawing money from credit card. So, it will cost me extra RM13 if my card was not retained by the ATM machine. This is the optimistic side of thinking. Haha

End of story. Thanks for reading. That's life. Hope you will have a good laugh on this.

Exam exam exam : VEE - Corporate Finance

2011-03-05T14:12:00.004+08:00

Oh dear, another exam is coming up >.<

Study look...haha

Pray hard i can go through...

You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me

2011-03-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

Song of the day~ A soundtrack from the movie Burlesque:

You haven't seen the last of me by Cher

A meaningful and beautiful song.

"I'm down now
But i'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough

I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of"

Yea, you'll never see the last of me...

Today Special (31/1/2011) - Dandelion

2011-02-02T15:37:00.006+08:00

It's been a long time i never see this plant already. Sigh, this is the consequences of living in a hectic city.

To most of the people, dandelion is just another type of grass but to me, it is a special plant that i like.

I like to play with it when i was young. Simply because i like to see the way they fly in the sky. ^^

Too bad i didn't bring my camera, only can capture it with my phone (don't have micro mode). And it was windy, so hard to capture it.

Today Special (29/1/2011) - Pampered: Ice Cream

2011-01-30T02:43:00.005+08:00

It's time to pamper myself~

Yup, i'm enjoying my day off.

Guess what flavor it is?

Chocolate?

Nah, it's chocolate matcha. It's green tea + Chocolate, mix.

I thought it will be 2 different scoops when i ordered. But... haha, unexpected.

Quite nice because it's not too sweet..yum yum!

I always like Kindori ice cream because they only make the ice cream upon order. So it's fresh.

Check out their website: http://www.kindori.com.my/

P/s: i ate 2 spoons already only remember to take photo, so the shape looks a bit weird in the photo. haha..

Holiday Mood

2011-01-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

Today is my last working day in year of Tiger. I'm going to have long CNY holiday start from tomorrow. ^^

Needless to say, works piled up as i was away for training for 2 days. I really felt stress and scared to read my emails. ><>

Since i cant finish them, i told myself to focus on my own task, which i must get it done before going on leave, and just ignore others. Learn to let go~ Fong shau, fong hoi sor yau....

And i did it, I reached home before the sky turn dark. ^^ Damn damn damn happy!

Oh ya, first time book bus ticket online (they just updated their website). Not only can avoid the hassle at the counter but also cheaper. 10% discount for online purchase! Hehe ^^

Actually i don't have any CNY mood but i'm glad that i can have a long holiday and i can go back to be with my family.

Happy Rabbit Year in advance! ^^

OT - Goosebumps?

2011-01-27T23:59:00.011+08:00

I went for training these 2 days. Full time, from 9am - 5pm. The training was internal but the location was in different building.

Well nothing special actually. However, i did experience something, errr....something different ><.

Here's the story:

After the first day training ended, i went back to office to work. Actually can go home directly but sigh, too many things to be done before CNY holidays.

Around 8pm, my housemate asked me want to go back or not. I hesitated for awhile and decided to go back earlier.

After dinner and on the way home, i came to realize that my big boss is going on leave starting from friday. Shit! I got some urgent thing that need him to review and sign but not yet done.

Then i rushed back to office to do. Sigh, it took a lot more time than i thought it should be.

Work, work, work. Till 12am, everyone on that floor left already and i was alone again.

Out of no where, an alarm started to ring. Don't know whose. Gosh, really. Luckily, my colleague told me about this before, else i'll be really really shocked.

Ya, it was late already. I quickly finished off the part that i did half way and went back.

It was 12.15am when i left. Walked to the lift and found the up button was pressed. Don't care la, i just pressed down button and it opened immediately. Eh, why the light of up button still on? Hmm...

I went in and pressed G. The lift stopped at 7th floor and opened. No one. Ok. It stopped again at 6th floor. This time the lift opened half only and closed. Oh dear, it's getting creepier. Okkk...Let's continue, it stopped at 4th floor again. Wah, this time it is really scared the hell out of me. My heart was almost jumped out. The light on that floor was off and it was all dark when the lift opened. Damn eerie! I quickly pressed close button, went down and left the building.

I'll think twice next time if i need to stay that late again.

p/s: Opps, the topic is not related to the picture at all.

Today Special (25/1/2011) - Fortune Cookie

2011-01-27T01:00:00.006+08:00

Got a fortune cookie from my big boss today. The message i got is "You have a friendly heart and are well admired" and he said it is true for me. LOL ^^

Well, what do you think?

Anyway, all the messages written are usually general and suited everyone.

It's just for fun!

Life.Imbalance

2011-01-23T00:24:00.016+08:00

Ya, I know. I know most of my posts were emo and down but i cant help it. And yet, this will be another moody post again. Please allow me to release it here ><

I admit that i'm kinda moody recently. It is quite serious as the level of emo-ness goes to the point that i can't control my feeling. Exploding, period.

I seldom get so moody or simply show my moodiness to people around me. But not for this time, "bad mood" is clearly written on face because someone told be that my face is really "black". I think some others might not dare to tell me. Haha..

Why?

Thinking of all the issue,work load and timeline, i'm really stress out. I am really exhausted, mentally.

You know what, my working hours per week is more than the total no of hour i slept per week. Not only work till very late every day, but i need to go back to work on weekend and public holiday. And, i broke my own OT record last friday by working till 1.20am. Although i'm the last one to leave, i don't even feel scared as i was too focus on work.

You may say a lot of people is just like me, but i have reached my limit.

I really felt upset last sunday because i couldn't bring my sister out that day. She purposely came from so far to find me, to hang out and see me. I felt so bad to take her to office as she didn't want to go out or stay home alone. :( I'm really really sorry.

My life is seriously imbalance. Where is my life? AmLife (my company) ><

I know it reaches my limit, so i decided not to go to office this weekend no matter what. There is a saying "To rest is to prepare for a longer journey".

Resting my mind over the weekend and preparing to fight again on Monday! Fighting!

p/s: Photo was taken in last year Oct, too bored while studying. Haha...

GoodBye 2010

2011-01-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

I am writing today to reflect and review myself and everything over the year that has just past. I felt that year 2010 passed through extremely fast, as quick as a wink.

Thinking back at the events and things that had happened over the year, Year 2010 is a special year for me.

Firstly, year 2010 is year of tiger. Meaning, i have lived for 2 cycles. Actually, this one is not important, just want to elongate my post. Haha..

Back to the point, I have a lot of first time last year. First time visited to my coursemates' house during CNY, first time and also our last time had our course night, travelled out of country with coursemates for the first time, don't care of my grade for the first time during final exam, have my first permanent job, bought my own first car, drove back from penang to KL alone for the first time, christmas eve countdown with colleagues for the first time and etc. I believed there are more that i can't remember.

Friendship.

I am glad that i have a bunch for good friends around me. I have known my Penang Gang for more than 10years. Although we seldom meet and chat, i can feel that our bond is still there. We will meet up to update ourselves every time i go back Penang. I'm very happy to hear that one of them is going to marry this year. Congratulations, Lao Yang!

As for me in KL, I have another gang, which is my uni friends, my coursemates. Through thin and thick, all the trips and activities, our bonds grew stronger. We like to 'chap bao fuk' and stay in a house, drink and chit chat all night long. Glad to know all of you! Thanks..

Turning Point.

I just graduated and have my first job last year. It was the biggest turning point in my life. I got to step out of comfort zone, prepared and exposed myself to this cruel corporate world. Before my job interview, a friend of mine (he claimed that he is my best friend) said something to me that i'll always remember. He said " in order to succeed, you need to be more confident, have self-confidence". And yea, he was right, i am always a person who is lack of confident. I am learning to trust myself and build my self-confidence slowly from that time onwards.

Job.

Luckily for me, I got the job i want in my first interview. I feel bless that I meet with a lot of nice people at work. Although i complained a lot about my jobs sometimes, i can say that i am happy to work there because of the nice boss and colleagues i have. The sad part is, i always work late till i feel that i lost my life sometimes. New year resolution? Work, Life balance. Like one of my colleague, Vim said "New Year Resolution: Go home by 7pm or earlier everyday". Haha..Also my target this year.

Relationship.

The queue is long. If you are interested, please take your number. Lol, just kidding...

Hmm...Not going to talk about it. All i can say is my status is still the same. Haha..

Might change this year? Who knows?

Okla, i guess that's all that i can think about me in 2010. The post is kinda long already.

Happy New Year! Wish everyone has a great year ahead.

~Empty~

2010-10-28T14:50:00.002+08:00

My heart is empty...Am I?

One year Old

2010-10-22T11:12:00.005+08:00

Oops...it has been 1 year since i started out blogging. Today is the day i turn 1 year old as a blogger.

Happy birthday to Angie the blogger. ^^

My tag line for this blog is ~a place to share, for everything i care~. Yea, this is really a place for me to share. Happy or sad, i just burst out all my emotions here. Not to say all la, but i did show a lot of feelings and thoughts that people might not know what i really think here. Well, may be this is the only place that i can and dare to voice out my feeling.

By the way, exam is around the corner. 10 days to go~~ i guess i'm going gaga again ><

Good luck to GieGie gaga!

Good Deed

2010-10-01T01:25:00.005+08:00

"You don't have to be a doctor to save lives"

30 September 2010 was a special day to me. It's the day that I donated my blood for the first time.

Without any hesitation, I decided to participate immediately when i saw the blood donation campaign advertisement a few days before.

Before donate, i felt excited yet a little bit scared since it was my first time.

Luckily enough, i passed all the requirements like not on medication, enough sleep, normal blood pressure and etc this time. I have missed a few chances previously.

During the process, i could actually feel the blood oozing out after the nurse inserted the needle in and my arm felt a little bit numb after that. Not sure why my blood oozed out quite slow compare to others.

After all, i have donated 350ml of blood. Although, it's not a big amount, i felt that i have accomplished something big. Just simply feel great when thinking that my blood might save a life.

I will definitely do it again next time.

"Give Blood. It is a gift of life"

"If you donate money, you give food! But if you donate blood, you give life!"

Quiet moment

2010-09-26T21:29:00.009+08:00

Time passes by as quick as a wink, it's end of september now. It means that MLC exam is around the corner.

Having working for more than 3 months, means I'm no longer new. Needless to say, work load increases day by day. On average, i leave company everyday at 8pm and reach home around 9pm after having dinner. Study? Nah, too tired.

In order to on leave and go back hometown without worry, i worked till 10pm++ to clear my outstanding tasks to meet deadline in 2 weeks ago.

And last friday, i worked till 11pm++ for the first time with one of my colleague. Both of us held a big responsibility on checking our system before signing off to use it for real. The whole floor just left us to 2 girls when we left. What an experience huh! The sad part was missing a gathering dinner with my friends.

Count-downing to my exam on 2nd Nov, I just have 37 days left and i got more than 50 chapters in total to cover. Will i able to finish it? Ya, I'm seriously short of time.

I think i'm really tired and stress out.

As you can see that i'm starting to disappear from Facebook and MSN. Also, do not join outing with friends this week. Feeling like hiding myself alone at home and don't feel like talking and going out. I am totally different from normal me who likes to laugh and hang out with friends.

I guess i need some quiet time, to rest properly. I'll be inactive for the moment.

Working and studying at the same time is really tiring. I really need to rejuvenate myself in order to walk further.

Hope that this quiet moment of me will pass through soon and i won't lose myself.

I'll be back, soon!

Green Apple

2010-09-08T23:16:00.004+08:00

Green apple always gives people the impression of its sourness. Ya, it's true that we only taste its sourness at first bite, but actually there is a slight sweetness after the sourness. So not much people really remember or realize its sweetness as the sourness is much more stronger.

Don't you think that life is like a green apple? There is always ups and down in our life. Everyone will taste the 'sourness' at some point of time and the only difference is how much or how 'strong' you got. Like green apple, most people just remember the sour part. I agree that those unhappy moments will always be a part of our memories but have you ever think that how can we taste the sweetness if we never taste the sourness or bitterness. Do you agree? Strangely, people usually think of those unhappy part and forget about the 'sweetness' after getting over those 'sourness'.

As for me, i realized a lot of people around me find me feeling happy all the time. May be i always hehe haha and laugh in front of people. I also don't know why i feel happy in front of people all the time. Is that really me? Yes, i always laugh from my heart out without faking it. It's not like i never have a dull moment in my life but frankly i went through quite a lot also. Not to say a lot because others' situation might be far more worst than me. The point is I have tasted the sourness in my life. So what? I just put it behind and move on to taste the sweetness.

So why bring along the sourness all the time and show your sour face to people around you? It's not only make you feel dull but also make people around you to feel unhappy. True? One way to get over the sourness is to be optimistic. Everything that is happened should have a reason behind it. Just look at the bright side and get over it. Don't just stop there and start blaming. You will feel much more happier living that way.

Life is short. I want to enjoy my every moment of life as we will never know what will happen next. So far I am doing great, enjoying my new working life. I really hope i can spread my happiness to people around me.

Life is like a green apple. You can only taste the sweetness after the sourness. Do you agree? Food for thought!

10 reasons why i laugh / smile...

2010-07-11T23:04:00.006+08:00

1. happy...haha

-needless to say, everyone will laugh when happy

2. awkward..

-i tend to laugh when i'm in an awkward situation

3. shy...

-i smile or laugh to cover my shyness

4. speechless...

-when i got nothing to say...haha

-you will find me "haha" a lot in msn if you realize

5. funny thought...

-sometimes you'll find me laughing before i say anything because there are some funny thoughts in my mind. I cant say it out because i keep on laughing.

6. did something wrong...

-i will laugh if i find myself doing something wrong

-thinking of how stupid i am

7. jokes / find something hilarious

-sometimes i cant stop laughing after seeing or listening to some hilarious stuffs

8. seeing others laugh

-yes, i'll laugh when see people around me laugh. Chain reaction?

9. crazy?

-maybe i'm a little bit crazy. No?

10. simple, because i like to laugh

self-made quote: a laugh a day keep depression away!

Laughter is the best medicine!

Lost and Found

2010-06-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

No, i did not lose anything. What I mean here is my FUTURE, the path that I choose!

I remembered during my first year in university, I was very confident and sure that I want to be in Actuarial field. So, i fought to major in Actuarial in my second year and i got it.

I took my first external paper for actuary (SOA), Exam P (probability) for the first time during the end of my second year in May 2008, if I am not mistaken. The result was known on the spot and I failed. And that was the wake-up call that this route to be an actuary ain't easy.

So I took it again for the second time in July 2008 (1st sem of 3rd year). Ya, I was very stress because i was really scared of failing this paper again. The result? Passed. Yeah!

Without realizing it, I was already in my 3rd year and I only got 1 paper in my hand. Gosh! Time passes by quickly.

Then, I started to feel lost during my 2nd sem of 3rd year. It was the period when i was looking for a company for internship. I can't find any internship placement in Actuarial Department. Not even a call for interview in Insurance company. Majority of my coursemates also couldn't get into Actuarial department either (maybe M'sia was still not yet recovered from the economy melt-d0wn). I ended up doing internship in Deloittle (Big 4) in Indirect Tax department (not related to my course at all).

Why I felt lost? It was because I finally realized that the demand for Actuary in Malaysia is very low. Also, the exams are so damn tough. I started to question myself. Can I do this? Is it the right route for me? Do I really want this? All sorts of questions popped up in my mind.

Still couldn't figure out what I want, I just followed my coursemates to take the 3rd paper, MFE (Financial Economics) in May 2009. Ya, I skipped the 2nd paper, FM (financial Mathematics) first. Result? Passed. Yeah! I think i was really lucky this time (Studied it in the last minutes).

Passing MFE actually helped me in gaining some confident back. And so, i continued to take FM half year later (end of 1st sem of final year). Yup, i admit, I'm the kind that like to study in last minutes. Hehe...Anyway, the result? Ngam ngam passed only.

In one and a half year time, i suddenly got 3 papers in hand but what's next? I really have no idea.

I decided not to take any external paper during my final sem final year because i wanted to enjoy my last university life to the fullest. Haha. Actually, i was not sure i can get into actuarial field or not.

Come what may, i just let fate decides...

p/s: to be continued...too long already and too tired to continue. i actually used 1 week to finish this post. (>.<)

Lizard, a cat's toy?

2010-06-07T14:54:00.000+08:00

Have you ever seen a cat playing with a cicak?? Actually cannot say playing, it is torturing to be exact. Haha...

Today, i went to my dad groceries shop to help out. While i sat down and rest, i saw 1 of my dad's cat (2 cats in the shop) carrying something in her mouth. I was curious and i tried to find out what is it. Then i saw something moving on the floor not far from the cat.

OMG! It's a lizard's tail. It, the tail, moved for awhile only stopped. So geli~~

In the cat's mouth is a tail-less cicak. I thought the cicak has dead but no. The cicak still can move when the cat dropped it on the floor.

How the cat tortured the cicak?? Haha..

The cat would drop the cicak on the floor, let it ran away but then caught it back again immediately and held it in her mouth. She repeated it again and again. Naughty cat!! Don't worry, she won't eat it.

And so, i just sat there and watched.

Suddenly, the cicak ran to my direction. In no time, i lifted up my leg quickly and screamed. I was very shock. This was the first time i screamed my heart out because of a lizard. Now only i realized i am really afraid of lizard.

The cat came to rescue. Haha. She jumped and caught it and walked away slowly. So funny. She was having a lot of fun torturing the cicak.

After awhile, the cat walked back carrying the tail-less cicak in her mouth. She dropped the cicak on the floor again and let it ran. I quickly moved away from the cat.

However, the cicak was no longer alive. The cat waited the cicak to run and prepared to catch it. She still had fun playing with it and carrying it around with her mouth eventhough it was dead.

My dad tried to take away the cicak from her but she just won't let go. She loved the cicak so much. Haha...By chance, my dad got the cicak and throwed it away. No toy to play now, she walked slowly to her food and enjoyed it.

The end of the show.

p/s: this cat not only can catch mouse, but also cockroaches, some bugs and lizards. Good job!

My first unemployment day

2010-05-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

Omg, it's already 4am. By right, i should sleep soundly in my bed now.

Actually i feel very tired, but don't know why i still don't want to go to bed.

Yesterday was my first day being unemployed officially. What have i done???

The answer is NOTHING. Am i a rice worm? Haha..

Okla, actually i spent my whole day in LRT and bus. Haiz, really wasted a lot of time.

I went out from my PJ house around 10.45am like that. The terminal bus station has temporary moved to Bukit Jalil, so i have to take LRT to there. From Taman Jaya station to Masjid Jamek, then changed to Starline LRT to go Bukit Jalil. I think i spent about 1 hour like that on LRT.

Then, I boarded a 12pm bus to Penang. It's not the bus from the company i usually took. Damn it, it took 6 hours to reach because it did not go to Penang directly but it stopped at other station in Perak first. Usually, it took almost or less than 5 hours to reach. Haiz, and here my whole afternoon was gone. My mood not very good at that time because i was very hungry, but i can't do anything.

It was dinner time when i reached, so my dad brought me to KAYU eat. He and my sis recommended me to eat Tosai Masala (don't know how to spell). Have you try it before? It's actually potatoes like in the curry puff wrapped inside Tosai. The taste not bad, very fulling.

Afterward, we went to Tesco shopping. I saw LAYS potato chips got discount, so i grabbed 1 ...Hehe :). It's very salty, not good for health actually.

Backed home, i watched TV with my sis. We enjoyed our drama session with LAYS potato chips. Then i watched GLEE for the first time, since it is highly recommended by Jenna. GLEE is a musical drama, quite nice to watch.

Then, like usual lo, online session. I tried to explore some companies and dropped my resume and filled in the application. And so, my first unemployment day ended here.

It's time to sleep. -0-

Starry Starry Night Poem

2010-04-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

In conjunction with the starry starry night picture that i have drawn, a poem is composed.

Starry starry Night

I can't believe my eyes

Tonight the sky is so so bright

Sparkle and twinkle in the sky

No, it is not the moonlight

And neither the fireflies

Just thousands of star that make up the night.

"Kiss the baby sky"

A perfect song for tonight

Non stop playing on my mind

A cup of green tea makes it a perfect night

Stargazing always leads me on cloud nine

Especially in this starry starry night.

p/s: Ooops, i cant see any star tonight. Composed it based on my drawing and my imagination. LOL

Starry starry Night

2010-04-24T10:29:00.000+08:00

I love starry night.

When can i see it again?

It's hard to see it in KL.

Where is the best place to see it?

Simply too stress

2010-04-21T14:48:00.000+08:00

1 day to go, my first final paper :Investment II.

I felt very stress this morning because i still feel blur about the whole subject.

My brain cannot absorb new things anymore i guess. I think I'm old already. Haiz!!

To release some tension, I drew again. And this is today's master piece:

Simply nothing! Just drew what's on my mind. ^^

And Again~~

2010-04-19T02:15:00.000+08:00

Exam is around the corner. Meaning, it is study week now.

And, i'm going gaga again. Hehe.

Once again, i'll bombard my blog with all nonsense and crazy post in this period.

It's been quite some time since i last posted my drawing here. *Evil Laugh*

I'm very bad in drawing but i like to draw it sometime just for fun.

This is drawn last month using air brush in 'Paint'

This is the same drawing as above but with the oil painting effect.

Okla, enough for today. More drawing will be coming up but i have no idea what to draw yet.

LOL ^^

2010-04-17T15:54:00.000+08:00

Have some laugh with the cute cow comics:

Have a nice day !! *Wink*

The Last Walk

2010-04-14T08:32:00.000+08:00

I can't remember how long has it been for me to walk to Institute Science Mathematics (ISM), my faculty from University Tower, my rented house.

I guess it's been about a year. Thanks to my lengzai course mates for fetching us, the girls to class and back home.

I moved out from hostel in second year of my university life. I have always been walk to class with my friends since we just live nearby our university. I think we need about 20 minutes to reach class. We always carry along an umbrella to 'shield' off the hot sun or rain.

Sometimes i would walk alone to class because my friends and I took different course. I would always listen to my MP3 if i walk alone. Also, i would stop by the main library once in awhile to read newspaper or borrow books. I stopped walking alone when Hooi Ling (a.k.a woman) joined me.

Actually, my course mate, Hooi Ling did not need to walk because her boyfriend can fetch her by motorcycle. However, i think because she doesn't want me to walk alone and so she accompanied me to walk. I can say she's really a good friend because she likes to help people around her. I appreciate this friendship a lot.

As we get to know our course mates better, the lesser we need to walk to class. And we officially no need to walk again since our first semester of our final year (July, 2009).

In order to meet with my academic advisor, Dr. Omar Mohd Rijal to sign my report card and a form (to be submitted to the dean office), I WALK to ISM today.

My attempts to meet him have failed for a few times. So i will grab any chance to meet him.

While having my breakfast at around 10.30am, i saw his email to meet him today from 11am-12pm. It's kind of rush and i was thinking of asking someone to fetch me there. Then i finally decided to walk to ISM since it'll be the last time for me.

It was very hot at 11am. Carrying an umbrella and listening to my MP3, i started to walk. About 5 minutes later, i realized i forgot to bring my purse and student card. And so, i walked back. After that, i started to walk again.

I reached there about 11.30am and i was all sweat. It's really hot. So, I wiped away the sweat with tissues and prepared myself to see him.

I was very happy because his room light was on (finally). Knock! knock! No one answered me. Isshhhh! I was very 'pekchek' at that moment. Then i left a message on his door asking him to sms me when he is around. I went to computer lab to online and enjoyed the air-conditional while waiting for him.

By the time we have done with the meeting, the dean office has closed for lunch. So i just walked back home. Then, i passed by library and walked in. It's been a long time since i last stepped in the library. It changed a lot and got better. I went to newspaper section and read The Star. Finished it about an hour later and try to pay for the 20 cents i owed to the library because of returning a book late years ago. But failed because i don't have coins and they also don't have change. Aiksss! Have to go again next time.

Then i started my journey to walk back. But, it started to rain. Luckily it's not that heavy and no wind. Carrying my umbrella, i walked slowly and enjoyed the 'rain walk' while listening to my MP3.

Maybe it looks like a bad day for me but i don't think so. I managed to experience a walk under a hot sun and rain together in today's walk for 1 last time like i used to be.

I think it as a symbol of my ending journey of university life. I am going to start a new chapter of life soon. Hope it'll be a good new beginning for me.

p/s: my post is getting longer and longer. My blog has become my diary recently. Too many thoughts in my mind. I wanna thank Dr. Omar also. I mean it although i felt 'pekchek' awhile. Haha. He is a good person actually.

Lazy bum bum

2010-04-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

I really felt that i'm getting lazy and lazier.

Do anything also feel lazy.

But the only thing that i'll not feel lazy is go out and have fun.

Maybe i have too much fun in this few months and never study.

I'm going from bad to worst. Gosh!

How how how~~~~

Exam is around the corner. I really should pack up my mood and get started to study.

So i decided to start study tomorrow. Ermmm..i mean today after waking up in the morning.

And i think i should change my life style also. I am like a night owl, sleep in the morning and active at night. Not good! Not good! I know, i know, but i can't help it!

Okla, i will try to change it. Starting from tomorrow, sleep at 12 am and wake up and 7am. Haha.

I think i can't la...haha..just try my best!

Also, i want to exercise more often. I should start swimming again tomorrow. At least 3 times a week.

Okla, hopefully i can achieve it. Jia You to myself.

Before the Prom Night

2010-04-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

Finally, i've done my assignment and presentation. No more test in UM.

Actually, i should be very free and relax. Get more sleep and wait for our first ever and last highly anticipated prom night to come.

But that is not the case.

I fell extremely tired since saturday (the presentation day). Really exhausted.

What's my job for the prom night?

List and plan out all songs that to be played during our prom night with Kityeng (Jayin).

Songs for registration slot, dinner, dance/game, gift exchange, announcing prom king and queen, songs to be sing together and ending. Most difficult part is to search for song that most people know to be sung together.

Initially, that's my only job for the night but i'm too kaypo. Haha.

Ok, let's see what have i done.

3-4-2010 (Saturday):

I accompanied the cards making group ( Tian Chyr and Hooi Ling) to buy the materials needed after our presentation. The cards will be our door gift for the night. They already got a sample to follow but the materials are too expensive and hard to find. Hence, i gave some suggestions and end up being a member of that groups. LOL. We've spent about 5 to 6 hours that day. Bought a new slipper because cannot stand walking with high heels.

4-4-2010 (Sunday):

I try to design the words to be used in the cards, ie 'Glamorous get Together' and 'autograph' in the afternoon. Then we started to make the cards at 11pm++ and we ended at 4am. I cut the cards till my thumb numbed. Damn tired.

5-4-2010 (Monday):

I had a bad sleep in the previous day. Woke up a few times in the middle and dreamt about something related to the cards but cant remember anymore. LOL. Then Neo brought me and HL to print the words that i've designed in the afternoon. Wrote my profile for the class booklet after that. Discussed the song list with Jayin at night. Don't know started from what time till 3am.

6-4-2010 (Tuesday):

Went to class in the morning. Can't remember what i did in the afternoon. Haha. Oh! i knew already. I went to shopping with Voon and Chee. LOL. Try to list out and arrange the songs that we've chosen in the previous day at night. There is some changes in the schedule, so I asked some opinion from Jayin. She got test on the next day, so i felt really paiseh to disturb her. Slept at around 3.30am that day.

7-4-2010 (Wednesday):

Continued to make our cards at 1pm. Chee came to help today. We did till 5.30pm. Really exhausted. Had a break and went to dinner with course mates. Felt sad because cant join them to watch movie. I got the responsibility to finish up the cards. Went back and started to make cards at 9pm. Voon also came to help out and cooked soup for us as supper. Finally finished the cards at 1am. Felt happy and satisfied. Yeah!

8-4-2010 (Thursday):

Writing this post now. Haha. I'll attend the last lecture in the morning later. It will be my last class in UM. Don't know will go where after that. I think will have dinner with course mates at night.

9-4-2010 (Friday):

OMG! It's the day. Our prom night day. The theme of our night: Glamorous get-together. I think it will be an unforgettable night. *Wink*

Although, I'm really tired after doing all those things for the prom night, i feel very happy because i did contribute something for our class. Feeling really satisfy.

We put a lot of efforts to make the cards. It looks simple but it's not easy to make it. So, I really really hope everyone will like it.^^

PHOBIA

2010-04-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

Everyone has phobia.

Some is afraid of animals such as cats (Ailurophobia), dogs (Cynophobia), mice (Musophobia) and etc.

Some is afraid of heights (Acrophobia), confined spaces (Claustrophobia)....

Some is afraid of blood (Hemophobia)

Some is afraid of ?????

There are really uncountable types of phobia.

My biggest fear?

OMG, it's public speaking (Glossophobia).

And I'm going to have presentation on saturday.

I never felt so stress because this will be the most formal and serious presentation i ever have.

It's not that i never have a presentation before, but often, the past presentation is not that important.

The importance i meant here is the mark allocation for the assignment.

This time the presentation part holds 65% of the total marks. It's very heavy.

I have been complained that i cant sleep well last few days and i suspect that this is all due to the pricing assignment.

Although it is a group assignment, but i felt really stress doing it because i'm not familiar with the topic.

I really can't sleep well before i completed my part of the assignment as the deadline is approaching. Once i completed my part and saw our assignment is somehow completed, i felt a little bit relief and can only sleep well.

I'm really afraid of public speaking. The symptoms? Palpitation, dry mouth, tense voice and etc.

When i feel nervous, i tend to forget the things that i want to present. Really scary...arghhh!

Help me please!!!

Or maybe wish me good luck...

Some interesting phobias to share here:

What do you call a fear of having a phobia?

Phobophobia...^^

What do you call a fear of number 666?

Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia.....a very very long word...geng!

Zzzzzzzz I wanna sleep tight zzzzzzzZ

2010-03-29T03:52:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 consecutive days...

I did not have a good sleep. I would wake up in the middle of the night for a few times.

As a result, i could not have a deep sleep during night time and would feel tired during day time.

On average, i only slept for less than 6 hours per day this week.

Why why why???

I'm not sure why...

Could it be i am too stress?

But I did not feel stress.

Could it be i feel stress unconsciously?

I have no idea...

Or may be there are too much matters lingering in my mind that I'm trying to avoid thinking about them?

Arhhh! I don't know... Don't want to think about it.

Oh! I know one thing that is really bothering me now is I'm uncertain about my future.

I'm graduating in less than 2 months time.

What have i achieve?? I can't even answer myself.

What kind of job i want? Can i get a good job? Should i stay in KL?

?????????????????????

Arrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Can i sleep soundly tonight???

when i was a kid

2010-03-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

Today, while searching for my birth certificate, i saw some old photos.

Then i can't help to see more. So i took out all the photo albums and tried to recall some childhood memories.

But i found out that i can't remember any. May be i was too small or my brain is really not good. X(

Okla, my purpose of writing this post is to share some of my childhood photos to you.

Hehe ! ^^

1 year old i think (not very sure). Yeng or not?

me and my dad

cute or not? hehe

hoho..that was my favorite dress and slipper

I like this photo...
Cousin, my eldest brother, me and 2nd brother (clockwise from above)

family photo at Kek Lok Shi

My pretty mommy and handsome daddy back then

siblings

Me and my little sister ( I was very tanned)

It's fun to see those photos. I'm feeling good. :)

P/S: Too bad i don't have a scanner, so the photos are kinda blur.

My name

2010-03-16T08:54:00.000+08:00

I can say 90% of my friends call me Angie.

Like my family members, my close hometown friends call me Gie.

For your info, 'Angie' is in my birth cert and IC. So it is my real name.

My chinese name? I think most of my friends, especially hi-bye friends don't know it.

Ok, if you don't know, my full name is Angie Lim Khai Im, 林楷音.

Recently, don't know starting from when, i started to feel that my chinese name is unique and nice.

Originally, my 楷 was this 凯, which had been used by me during my kindergarten years.

Then my mum asked me to change to 楷 before i went to Standard 1. I'm not sure about the exact reason but it was suggested by a fortune teller.

Both Angie and 音 are given by my dad. He said he gave me a christian name because many people in his workplace used christian name at that time.

U see, 楷:大楷,中楷,小楷= chinese calligraphy and 音: 音乐= music. But the funny thing is i did badly in both of them. Haha... Don't know why.

楷音 was used in my Primary school because i felt that having a Christian name is weird as very few kids had one at that time.

I started to use Angie since Form 1 and fewer and fewer friends called me 楷音 since then. And now, i find it weird when people call me 楷音. Haha...

I used to hate my name because it started with A. My class No., Exam candidate No. are always 1 or 0001. I'll be the first one to do running, high jump, long jump and etc. SPM and STPM exam? I sat at the first row first column. Everything started with me. So now, i really don't like to be the first one to do anything. *phobia* haha..just kidding!

Naming a baby is not an easy task. I think i should thank my dad for giving me a nice unique and rare name.

Thank you, daddy.

Life is vulnerable....Treasure your life...

2010-03-07T03:58:00.000+08:00

R.I.P uncle....

I woke up today with a sms on my phone. It was from my sister.

"Uncle passed away d"

I didn't feel shock but just feel sad because i have ready to receive such news.

Actually, I have received some bad news about my uncle 5 days ago.

He was hospitalized because he......

An unwise and silly decision.

Yes, his life had been chaotic and yet everyone had always helped him out no matter what.

I still remembered i accompanied my dad shopping the day before CNY to buy new clothes for him. My dad even gave him money to buy a pair of new sports shoes. He was very happy after he bought a pair of NIKE shoes and showed it to my dad.

I was so shocked that day till i can't concentrate on my study even though i had test the next day.

He was in coma for a few days. I think everyone had calm down in these few days and prepared for the worst.

Well, life is hard and complicated. There are always ups and downs in our life.

Sometimes, it's not easy to overcome the hardship but there is always a way to get through it. All we need is time and patience.

Running away is a bad option that will just make our love ones hurt more.

Life is vulnerable. Treasure every moment you have in your life. Live life to the fullest without regrets.

寂寞光年

2010-02-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since i updated my last post. CNY is going to end in a few days time but i felt that it has ended yesterday. Yesterday will be my last CNY day to receive ang pau and gamble. I really had enjoyed this year's CNY especially with my hometown buddies and course mates.

Tests and assignments' deadline are approaching. Next few weeks will be very hectic. I guess i need to pack up my holiday mood and start working hard. Sigh, really don't have the mood to study.

I felt very tired and down after class today. I don't know why...

It was like a lot of things come up in my mind but actually i don't know what am i thinking...but very emotional and heart-aching...arhhh..

Okla, let's listen to the song of the day. This song is kinda suit my feeling now...

寂寞光年 by 刘力扬

This song got another version called 礼物. It is actually the same song with same melody but with different lyrics.

But i like 寂寞光年's lyrics more.

Ok, it's time to face the reality.... :(

Hopeless Wishes

2010-01-25T19:18:00.000+08:00

oh boy, why i feel so homeless?

our bonds are slowly broken and chainless;

really feel so helpless, i'm so helpless,
seems like we have drifted further and further, it's so remoteness;

I am still that much useless, so useless,
nothing i can do to line up the broken pieces;

thought that i was already emotionless,
after all the tear drops and sadness;

again and again i can still taste the bitterness,
it is killing me and no, i'm not painless;

sometimes i feel so lifeless, so lifeless,
no one to turn to and the loneliness;

can i not to feel so hopeless? it's so hopeless...
can i runaway from all the messes?

all i want is togetherness, only togetherness,
and this will be my biggest wishes.

mehhhhh....

2010-01-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

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___// \\ || \\________________ __ //_\\ || \\

/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\"/\

Mooo....

2010-01-19T09:33:00.000+08:00

_ _______( _)

*/|_@ __| ..|___mooo...

^ |__@_( o o)_ _ @_

^_ //||_||\\__ __\|/

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Am i pretty???

2010-01-19T03:35:00.000+08:00

Recently, some of my friends told me that I am quite pretty... *blush blush*

I know, i know, please don't vomit....haha

The question is, am i really pretty? I doubt myself..

I never thought that pretty, this word can be described on me..haha..really...

I often heard people said i'm cute but not pretty...

Also, if you notice, i often say myself cute, but never say pretty. Not like Hooi Ling (a.k.a woman), she always says: "i too pretty liao" haha...

In my view, those girls that know how to wear pretty pretty, have nicely done hair, know how to make up and etc are categorized as pretty girls.

But me? Always wear t-shirt and jeans, like to play around like crazy people, lazy and don't know how to make up and etc, totally opposite of those pretty girls in my mind..

That's why i doubt myself...

p/s: why i suddenly ask this kind of stupid question? 4 days without class, too boring at home...Sien till sot jor!

What's your blood type? Part 8

2010-01-18T08:20:00.000+08:00

Part 8: At the canteen

In my view:

Type A: tends to think a lot

Type B: disinterested

Type O: always curious..can say kaypo bah

Type AB: weird?

What's your blood type? Part 7

2010-01-17T04:24:00.000+08:00

Part 7: Characteristic

Type A: Stingy, petty, selfish, hatred

Type B: Indifference, disinterest

Type O: Curious, competitive, (sigh)

Type AB: Unpredictable...Different kind? Naive?

What's your blood type? Part 6

2010-01-15T09:20:00.000+08:00

Part 6: Meeting at 3 o'clock

(I personally feel that this is quite accurately to me for my blood type)

Another version:

Type O always late?

But Type B is ....?? Worse!!

What's your blood type? Part 5

2010-01-13T15:01:00.000+08:00

Part 5: Rules

When the kindergarten kids are told not to cross the line, what will happen?

Type A: Never cross the line (obedient)

Type B: Cross the line immediately (rules breaker)

Type O: Cross the line when the teacher is not around (break the rule secretly)

Type AB: Complain to the teacher when she come back (Spy)

When they are together?

What's your blood type? Part 4

2010-01-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

Part 4: Driving

Type A: Perfectionist, Over confidence

Type B: Easily distracted (distracted by the leng zhai/leng lui on the road)

Type O: Afraid of boring (lack of patient while driving)

Type AB: Afraid will fall asleep while driving

When they are together in a car?

(This is a finding from an insurance company)

What's your blood type? Part 3

2010-01-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

Part 3: Orders

Order: Hang the picture on the wall

Type A: Sweat

Measure carefully

Afraid (more sweat)

Hahh.. relieve finally

Type B: ~lalalala~

Nevermind, as long as it was done

Type O: Rest first, later only do it.

Type AB: Smear the picture and run away =.=!!

What's your blood type? Part 2

2010-01-11T04:59:00.000+08:00

Part 2: Space

Different blood types has different favourite space. Let's see.

Type A: Beside wall

Type B: Center

Type O: No particular space. Like to walk around.

Type AB: Corner

What will happen if they all are put in an empty room?

LOL...that's funny!

What's your blood type? Part 1

2010-01-10T07:00:00.000+08:00

People with different blood type have different characteristic.

Let's see the comic below, does it truly describe the characteristic of all blood type?

Part 1: Before Exam

Type A: Concentrate well. Always prepare well before hand, won't wait till last minute. Gain confident through hard-work.

Type B: Like to choose subject to study. Always start from the most hated subject.

Type O: Will wait until last minute only can concentrate well.

Type AB: Cannot burn midnight oil.

What will happen if they all study together?

More blood type comic to come....

A week without computer~

2010-01-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Woohoo...First post in year 2010...

Time flies...My last long holiday has finally ended.

I enjoyed spending some quality time with my family especially my lovely sister.

I enjoyed meeting up with my secondary school friends. We had some wonderful gathering.

I really enjoyed my 3 weeks holiday in Penang. I felt sad to leave home and came back here, in PJ.

It has been a week now. But actually i felt very happy here also.

I came back on Monday, 28 Dec 2009 and found out that my computer has broken down. When i switched it on, it only showed: " Reboot and select a proper boot device or insert boot media in selected boot device." Gosh, my hard disk had reached it life span, i guessed.

Felt so so so down. I don't know how will my life be without a computer. Computer is my only companion here. Sob sob.

Luckily, i got a bunch of coursemates and friends here and also my housemates. My life is not that boring and lifeless as i thought after all. ^^

How was my first week without computer?

Monday: Went to watch Avatar in Tropicana Mall with Renee, Hooi Ling (a.k.a woman) and Neo. Nice movie!

Tuesday: First day to class for this new semester. Went to Red Box Plus Karaoke, Mid valley in the afternoon for lunch. Back to class at 4pm. Had dinner with coursemates in SS2 after class and chit chat for a few hours.

Wednesday: Went to Yee Voon's house to prepare food for the party at night. We had make the milk agar-agar with logan. For my coursemates health, i made it less sweet. Haha (but they complained that it was tasteless). I had missed the chance to learn to cook curry chicken from voon's mom because voon was busy that day. I had a wonderful and memorable party at night. First time got thrown into the pool by the guys. Nice experience! We had 2nd round in Picadaly (dont know how to spell).

Thursday: It was new year eve. Went to class in the morning and slept in the afternoon (not enough sleep in the previous day). Went to Xuan music cafe to countdown at night. Yeah, I'm not lonely that day.

Friday: Woke up very late. Suddenly decided to go to Time Square with my housemates in the afternoon, since i got nothing to do at home. Had fun eating delicious food and shopping. Felt so happy to have my favorite green tea ice cream. Yummy!

Saturday: Had Dim Sum in Jalan Ipoh at 12.30am. First time ler, geng! Stayed at home during day time. Did laundry, uploaded photos and surfed internet (Thanks to my housemates for let me using their laptop). My friend helped me to sent my CPU to the expert. Raining day spoilt my swimming plan in the evening.

Sunday: Went to Green Box Karaoke with housemates and shopping again! Really broke liao....

Woah, actually i was really busy and having fun this week without computer. Great!

Oops, I think this post too long liao..haha!

(p/s: I need to spend a few more days without computer because my friend is not free to get it back for me)

How do i get fat? Part 3: Penang Hawker Food

2009-12-24T15:22:00.000+08:00

Kinda busy recently, lazy to update my blog.

Okla, how do i get fat? Needless to say la, Penang is a food paradise/heaven.

A picture is worth a thousand words, see it for yourself.

loh bak

chee cheong fun

tomyam beehun

roti canai tiga rasa

apom telur

yu tao mai

poh piah

laksa

jawa mee

yee fu mee

hokkien char

Chinese herbal mee

curry mee

and etc...drooling? come to Penang to eat la.

No matter...

2009-12-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

I came across with this song today and kinda like the melody and the lyrics.

No matter by Angel

Actually i don't know who is the singer so i try to google the song and i found out that this song was never been released commercially but it was in a few dramas. So, I think those TVB drama fans should familiar with this song because they used this song in a few dramas before.

Oh, there is an error in the lyrics. It should be like this:

In the windy day, wind will lead (not leave) your way.

Enjoy!

Announcement

2009-12-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

I have an announcement to make.

The pregnant cat had given birth to 3 baby cats.

If not mistaken, they are 2 girls and a boy.

They'll be adopted by others when they grow bigger and no longer dependent on their mom.

I feel that the cats are really 好命 (lucky?). They are given with a lot of freedom (not caged) and are fed with good food. See what they eat:

cat biscuits

ocean fish (my dad really sayang them)

That's why we have to give away the baby cats or else my dad will be broke because they eat a lot.

However, they really do their job well. They did catch rats for a few times before.

can u spot the hidden cat? hehe

How do i get fat? Part 2: Tea Time

2009-12-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

Usually, when i'm in KL, i wont have tea time.

Okla, may be i will have some biscuits or fruits for tea time occasionally if i feel hungry.

Here in Penang, gosh...I am 'forced' to have tea time, although not everyday, but quite often.

What i have for tea time??

Papa's homemade Decaffeinated Nescafe.
I thought i wont have any coffee after my exam =.=
but my dad would say: "Let's have some nescafe together, i make for you..."
Luckily, it is decaffeinated. So, palpitation wont strike and i still can sleep after having it.

Oily food: Pisang goreng, ubi goreng, curry puff, kuih, etc....
walao..all fried food.
I dont mind to have them occasionally, but my dad just love them and will buy them when he passes by the stall.
I am forced to eat them because i dont want my dad to eat so much. They are not good for health but my dad just wont listen. Haihhhh...what to do? I cant stop him from buying them so all i can do is to scarify my body to eat them. This is how i get fat.

To be continued....

the CATs

2009-12-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

I love small animals.

Dogs? cats? rabbits? hamsters?

I love them all as long as they are pets.

Let me show you the cats in my dad's sundry shop.

Miao Miao (or Meow Meow) the mom

She likes to sneak out secretly to see her boyfriend =.=

Currently, she is pregnant for the 2nd time. Faint!

Mani (or Money, i think Money is more correct) the kid
She got 2 siblings but they are already given away.

She is very naughty and hyperactive.
Like to play with plastic bags.

Cute huh?

How do i get fat? Part 1: The Ice Cream

2009-12-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

As we all know, ice cream is a junk food, sweet and creamy, unhealthy food that make us fat.

Yes, i like ice cream. But, i will only have it once in a blue moon. I like to eat ice cream especially when i'm stressed or sad.

My favorite ice cream is Green Tea Ice Cream (from the Legend of Tea)..yummy

My favorite flavor other than green tea is chocolate.

Get back to the main point, how i get fat during this holiday.

Everytime i follow my dad to his sundry shop, he'll ask me to eat ice cream. My reply? No, i don't want...very full and ice cream makes us fat.

Then he finds me not noticing, usually when i'm reading newspaper, he will take 2 ice creams, unwrap them and stand beside me.

Suddenly, dad said: "Nah, take it!"

I looked at him and replied: "I don't want."

Dad: "Unwrapped already, just eat la."

Me: "...."

No choice lo, i have to eat it since he already unwrapped it without asking me want to eat or not. I'm not sure whether he wants to eat it or he wants me to eat. Haha...

I had eaten 3 ice creams in less than a week. This is how i get fat.

How do i get fat? To be continued....

Honesty

2009-12-09T17:26:00.000+08:00

It has been a routine for me to follow my dad to his little sundry shop after dinner almost everyday since i backed from KL.

As usual, i just go there, sit aside playing with the cats or reading newspaper.

About 10.00pm, when the shop was about to close, i saw a woman riding a motorcycle and stopped in front the shop. She came in, approached the counter straight away and asked : "Aunty, dah berapa lama kamu buka kedai ini?"

Curiosity lead me and my dad to approach the counter and see what was wrong.

Aunty: "Setengah tahun."

Woman: " Aunty, semalam kamu salah kira la."

Then she took out a note book and turned to a page where she listed down what she had bought from the shop yesterday and the price of each item. She took the calculator on the table and showed the aunty the total price.

Woman: " kamu kurang kira ini."

I thought she came back to ask for the money that over calculated but turned out to be to return the money that miscalculated yesterday.

Dad: " Wah, kamu sporting ar...orang biasa tak akan pulang balik duit kalau tersalah kira."

Said the woman, as she shopped for some groceries: " Saya juga buat business, saya tau la...buat apa juga ada balasan la...hari ini buat macam ini kepada orang lain, lain hari orang lain juga akan balas balik kepada kamu. Saya tak kisah kalau saya tersalah kira dan customer tak pulangkan duit tetapi bagi saya, orang business, saya tau la, saya akan pulangkan duit la......."

This woman is really honest. I mean she came back to return 60cents that was wrongly calculated the day before. It is really hard to find this kind of people nowadays. Like me for instant, i will return back the uncorrect change if i find out on the spot. If i only find out after i went home, i don't think i'll go back and return the money.

This is what i encountered today. I find it hard to believe and like to share it here. Thanks for reading it.

C'est La Vie...

2009-12-09T08:50:00.000+08:00

Introducing....

my first ever serious poem, which was composed and posted in my facebook notes on November 29, 2008. 'Isn't Right' is my 2nd piece.

This is life (C'est la vie)

easy come, easy go,
things always come and go,
sometimes it is hard to let them go,
so we should always learn to let go...

things come before you know,
truth is something you should know,
nothing is impossible to say no,
sometimes we should learn to say no...

time past and go,
we often think what if we never did so,
life is not as easy as u think so,
try not to regret when you grow old...

I wrote a few funny poems for my friends before this one in my facebook but all are crazy poems...haha..it was a long time ago. English, malay or mandarin? I have all, even mix language and hokkien also got...I started composing poem after my Langkawi Trip last year. I did not know why suddenly got so much idea at that time. Now? No more idea....

Okla, let's stop here for today...

Mon Chéri!

2009-12-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

Hoho...finally, no more exam for the rest of this year...

Since i'm so free, let me show you the Ferrero Rondnoir that my sister has posted to me last month...

How is it different from Ferrero Rocher? First, the outer coating is a chocolate crumble, whereas Rocher is coated with crushed nuts. Then inside the wafer shell, it is a little sphere of buttery dark chocolate cream and for Rocher, it is a whole hazelnut surrounded by chocolate hazelnut paste. The taste is quite different as Rondnoir has more chocolate flavor.

Other famous products from Ferrero Group other than these two are Kinder Beuno, Raffaello, Mon Cheri and etc.

My favourite of them all is Mon Cheri. There are two version of Mon Cheri. The American ones are simply a milk chocolate shell over a whole hazelnut surrounded by hazelnut paste and crushed hazelnut. The European version consists of cherry floating in a special liquor and shelled with milk chocolate. The one i like is the American one. Never try the European one as it is not sold in Malaysia.

'Mon Chéri', the name is actually come from French word, Mon Chérie means 'My Dear'. Nice name, isn't it?

But too bad, after 20 years in production, this american version Mon Cheri is discontinued by Ferrero Group. Sob sob :'( ...No wonder i can't find it anywhere, even in Langkawi since last year. No more chance to enjoy it again. Goodbye, Mon Chéri!

-A Fighter-

2009-11-27T10:38:00.000+08:00

4 days to go to my FM exam....

I really stressed out yesterday and about to break down and give up. But then, I don't have the courage to withdraw the exam.

If i give up and withdraw, i'll let the people around me, who support me, especially my family members down. I don't want to do that because they always believe in me, believe that i will make it, believe that i will go through it.

Yes, I am a loser if i give up without a try. I am a winner if i try my best and hang on till the last moment even though i don't succeed, right?

Perhaps, money will be the only thing i'll loss if i fail the exam (although it was sponsored by my brother). But, I can always earn it back, so it means that i got nothing to lose.

I got my strength back today. I know i am a fighter. I am ready to fight till the end.

Song of the day: Fighter - Christina Aguilera

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Stolen

2009-11-23T10:38:00.000+08:00

Song of the day: Stolen by Jay Sean

This is a song i used to like a few years ago. The only old song i can remember from this singer.

Oh ya, Jay Sean's new song Down featuring Lil Wayne is quite nice also.

After watching the video, I got a question here.

Do guys always cannot resist when women offer themselves to them?

Or just they simply do not want to reject the 'great' offer?

I don't understand la.

Get back to stolen, when will my heart be stolen? haha...

Due to some personal reasons, i have locked up my heart and secured it in a safety box to prevent it from being stolen and broken. It's quite hard to steal it because to reach the box, first one must tear down a wall.

Well to tell you the truth, my heart is almost being stolen this year. Everything is happened too fast and too abrupt until no time for me to build the wall. Fortunately, it did not happened. I felt lucky because i found out later that the person is not the right one for me.

I'll feel scared when someone gets nearer to the safety box. I guess i got philophobia. I think i need some time to overcome it. Hopefully, i can meet the right one who has the right key to unlock my heart and help me overcoming my phobia.

p/s: I don't why i wanna share those feeling here today. Those are truly personal and deep down from my heart and i usually won't share. May be i'll regret after posting it...

Take your time, have a cup of Coffee...

2009-11-20T15:45:00.000+08:00

I have to admit, i'm addicted to coffee recently. The coffee i mean here is Old Town White Coffee with natural cane sugar.

The funny thing is i used to dislike coffee for the past 22 years. Haha...

I started drinking coffee this year during my internship period (March-June). I had to wake up very early every morning to go to work. To kill my sleepiness, i drank coffee. I can't really drink much coffee because of palpitation. So, i just added a bit Nescafe in my Milo and it became Neslo. I drank it almost every working day during that period.

I started with Nescafe. Then my brother recommend me Old Town White Coffee and i started to like it and abandoned Nescafe. I would mix half packet of Old Town White Coffee with 2 teaspoons of Milo. Yum yum..

I stopped after my internship ended and started to drink it again lately during my study week. I drink it almost everyday but not everyday la..haha. I'll start my day with a cup of Neslo and biscuits or bread. After that, i only start studying.

I drink and drink and drink until running out of supply only i realized my addiction to it. I would crave for it. I substituted it with Nescafe Gold which i bought long time ago but it doesn't satisfy my taste bud, haha..

We always hear that coffee is bad for health. Actually, coffee is not as bad and harmful to health. Moderate consumption of coffee can be good for health.

Health benefits of coffee

coffee helps to combat atherosclerosis, since it increases blood content of benign cholesterol, which help prevent hardening of the walls of blood vessels
helps identify irregularities in the work of the digestive system, like (heartburn, gastritis, etc.)
protects the liver from a number of diseases
prevents the increase of blood pressure, due to fact that coffee contains polyphenols, which according to experts expand the blood vessels.
coffee contains life-giving antioxidants to help fight cancer and heart disease
coffee helps to stop blood after small cuts
increases stamina
helps to overcome drowsiness
coffee enhances memory and the ability to focus
stimulates the creative spirit and associative thinking
coffee treats cold (at initial stage)
improves your mood
enhances the functioning of the heart and metabolism
coffee positively affects the lungs
improves blood circulation
coffee contains vitamin PP and minerals
stimulates activity of kidneys

For more information, please visit the link below:

http://www.healthylifestyle-wellbeing.com/2009/05/14/health-benefits-of-coffee-is-coffee-good-for-health/

Oh ya, i almost forget, my purpose of writing this post is to show off the Old Town White Coffee mug i got today. My mug's serial no. is 0026286. Haha... the mug is really cute and it is limited edition. I can enjoy my coffee again start from tomorrow until i finish my external paper in 1st of December.

Exam Fever~~

2009-11-17T14:51:00.000+08:00

Exams make me going gaga...

I was killed by Risk Theory today...sigh! 2 more papers to go...

No time to draw these few days, so i post my random shot of the day..wuhoo!!

Fantastic Fourth~

2009-11-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

I feel very tired today may be because i did not sleep well last night. I woke up every 2 hours after i slept. Haihhh..

I got no idea what to draw so i didn't plan to draw today. I guessed i'm just too tired to do anything.

After dinner time, i took out my notes and stared at it. And I thought: i need a break from those notes for awhile. So i clicked the 'Paint' and started drawing again.

Drawing is my recent way to release tension. I really feel better and happier after drawing. You should try too if you feel stress.

You might say my drawings are ugly or cute or whatever, i really don't care as long as they can bring laughter to my friends.

Here's the picture of the day, my fourth piece. It's Moo Moo again...(I really don't know how to draw others, especially human being)

My housemates said i have improved...haha!

Simply Mushroom~*

2009-11-14T06:14:00.000+08:00

My 3rd piece...a simple one.

Finally got a human. >.<

p/s: dunno why the colour changed when i uploaded here (the cloud looks different from the ori one). May be the quality is reduced.

My 2nd master piece...

2009-11-13T06:15:00.000+08:00

And again, have some laugh with my drawing... XD

I feel like i'm in kindergarten again... >.+

~moo moo~

2009-11-12T08:45:00.000+08:00

I don't know why today i'm so in drawing mood (free hand drawing using mouse)....haha..let me show you my drawing.. haha..

Just for fun...Hope you all can have a good laugh!

-My little Sister-

2009-11-10T06:32:00.000+08:00

I have a sister. Her name is Joyce. We are very very close. I love her very much.

She is younger than me but she is taller than me. So outsiders always thought that i'm younger than her...hehe

Although she is younger than me, she always treats me and takes care of me as if she is my big sister. Every time i go back Penang, she'll buy me my favorite food like dark Chocolate, some junk food and etc. She always worries that i got nothing to eat in KL. She works part time in ESPRIT and she always 'forces' me to go there to choose some clothes because she wants to buy for me (but the clothes there don't really fit me so i seldom go). I know she loves me and wants to make me happy.

I recalled the first day when i left Penang to UM in KL. I remembered she did not speak much that day and i could see her sad eyes with some tears at the moment i left. I shed some tears on my way to KL not because of leaving home but because of her. She is the one that i worried the most when i left Penang. I felt bad for leaving her alone in Penang as my 2 brothers were also at KL at that time.

There is another incident that i felt touching. It was happened in this year during my internship period. My friends and i planned to go back to our beloved home town on one friday straight after worked. She bought the tickets a few days before but the tickets turned out to be invalid because the time stated in the ticket was not in the schedule.We were ask to wait here wait there and we walked around Pudu Raya that night. For the first time, i wore high heels for about 20 hours. Can you imagine how painful my legs were? After a few hours, we only knew that our tickets were actually invalid. We tried to changed the tickets but the counter had closed at that time and was operated by different person. All tickets were sold out because that following monday was a public holiday. We were stranded at Pudu Raya until almost midnight. I called my dad and told him that i could not go back that day and the incident. My sister was having supper with my dad at that time and tears were rolling down her cheeks instantly when she heard about the incident. I knew this from my dad the next day and i was touched because she cried in the public because of me. By the way, we got tickets to go back at the end and that was a bad incident that i had experienced and would remember. A beautiful nightmare huh?

Ding Dong. The door bell rang. Someone is looking for me. I'm curious. Who could he or she be? He is the Pos Laju man. He handed me a parcel from Joyce, my sister. I am very very surprised because she never mentions to me about this. You know what is it inside the parcel? As i guessed, it is a box of dark Chocolate - Ferrero Rondnoir (i never eat before one..hehe). I guess she worries that i am under stress as I'm having exam now. This is the second time i received Chocolate parcel from her (the first time was a box of Ferrero Rocher, big one, during Valentines' day...haha). I am very happy today because i got a surprise from her. She makes my day. Really good to have such a sister huh? Don't envy...hehe

I love you, sis! Thanks....

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

2009-11-06T15:36:00.000+08:00

Come on, sing with me, "Twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are, up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky, twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are."

This is a well-known nursery rhyme that every kids will learn to sing. For your information, the joint authors of this rhyme were 2 sisters called Ann Taylor and Jane Taylor and the first publication date was 1806. Wow, it was 203 years ago and yet it is still very popular now. It is often sung to the tune of the French melody "Ah! vous diraj-je, Maman" (Ah! I shall tell you, Mum). Mozart wrote the twelve variations on "Ah! vous diraj-je, Maman".

Actually, do you know that the part that we've learned is just a small part of the original poem. Let's see the full version:

Twinkle twinkle little star,

how I wonder what you are?

Up above the world so high ,

like a diamond in the sky!

When the blazing sun is gone,

when he nothing shines upon,

Then you show your little light,

twinkle, twinkle all the night.

Then the traveller in the dark,

thanks you for your tiny spark,

He could not see which way to go,

if you did not twinkle so.

In the dark blue sky you keep,

and often through my curtains peep,

For you never shut your eye,

'till the sun is in the sky.

As your bright and tiny spark

lights the traveller in the dark,

Though I know not what you are -

twinkle, twinkle little star.

A beautiful rhymes for kids. Don't you think so?

How it begins...

2009-11-02T14:37:00.000+08:00

Ok, the most voted title is 'Rhythm in my heart". It was the first one came into my mind when i was about to create a blog. On second thought, i feel that it was not good enough and i came out with more ideas. I got a few choices but i can't make up my mind. So i just ditched the idea and forget about it.

On 21st october 2009, wednesday, i went to SS2 to lok-lok with my course mates after our Insurance class. Jenna drove us (Hooi Ling, Yeek Chee, Kit Yeng and me) back that day after lok-lok. On our way back to University Tower, where i stay, we started to talk about Chee and Jenna's blogs. Then i told them actually i had been thinking of blogging but i didn't know what title to put. I told them my blog is title-less and this was how "Title-Less" came. After that, i can't remember either Jenna or Chee came out with the voting idea. And this was how my blog is created with a voting poll. My blogging life is started from here....

"Rhythm In My Heart" ---> Like i wrote in the title description, "a place to share, for everything i care", this blog is a place for me to voice out everything that is deep down in my heart, something that i usually don't speak out but i care and like to share. Want to know me better? Just follow my rhythm!

Thank you all for the support!

Isn't Right

2009-10-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

Tonight is another night,

dark dark sky with no moonlight,

feeling a bit tight,

something is just not right;

Staring at the fluorescent light,

i do not feel it is bright,

something wrong with my eyesight?

or just my mind isn't right?

Hoping to get a flight,

escape to a place with a great height,

to see the beautiful twilight,

wish that everything can just out of my sight;

Everything is just not right,

but i won't give up without a fight,

try my best to make everything alright,

and tomorrow night will be a wonderful night.

~Love at First Sight~

2009-10-28T03:30:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Well, i personally do not believe it...

or may be i haven't met mine...hehe.. i don't know.

I came across with this post this morning:

Do You Believe in Love at First Sight?

There are 10 true tales of love at first sight in the post.

You can go to the link and read them.

After reading them, my perception changed a little bit, not totally la.

Perhaps, it may happen but only to those who are lucky.

It's special only if both feel the same way.

I really don't know.

Or may be you've met yours but you do not realize it.

To me, i cannot love somebody without knowing anything about that person.

I'm kinda choosy i guess.

So i think love at first sight will not happen on me.

Well, what do you think about love at first sight? Are you a believer?

~Fairy Tales~ No More

2009-10-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

Image is taken from http://adisneyworld.disney.go.com/media/wdwi/images2003/languagespecific/en_GB/parks/magickingdom/attractions/cinderellacastle/cinderellaCastle.jpg

Once upon a time......

...... and they live happily ever after.

Sound familiar?

Yes, this is a fairy tale and that is how it usually begin and end.

Also, there is always a charming prince came to rescue in the end

Now, tell me, who do not like fairy tales??

I believe everyone especially girl likes it and hope to live like a fairy tale, find a prince charming and live happily ever after....

Yes, I like fairy tales. I really really do.

My top 3 favourites are Cinderella, Rapunzel and Little Mermaid...

Back to reality... the truth is cruel and there isn't any fairy tale at all...

Hope to live happily ever after? Nah.. don't think about it....

Prince Charming with white horse? No such thing...

Yes, it is time for me to grow up.

I know i should not believe in fairy tales anymore.

Wondering why i suddenly talk all these craps?

It is because i came across with this song today.

Song of the day: Cinderella by Tata Young

Look at the lyrics:

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

[Chorus]

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free

[Chorus]

I think this song really suit my feeling.
I rather rescue myself than waiting for somebody to save me.
Don't wanna depend on someone else, I'm gonna set myself free.
Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind.
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am.

p/s: another song that suit this post is Cinderella by Sweetbox (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyZ6ewGcWG0). It's totally different.

Palindrome

2009-10-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

Image is taken from http://www.eoilangreo.net/cristina/imagenes/palindrome.jpg

This is an interesting word i've learned yesterday.

Definition: A palindrome is a word, sentence or series or of numbers that reads the same forwards and backwards.

Eg: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1

Eg: "Was it a rat i saw?"

Interesting, right? (i think i'm the only one who found it interesting >.<)

3 famous quotations:

- Oldest palindrome : " Madam, I'm Adam"

- Napolean : "Able was I ere I saw Elba"

- Goethal : "A man, a plan, a canal, Panama!"

Palindromes that i like:

- Never odd or even

- Name no one man

- No lemon, no melon

- No devil lived on

So, can u think a palindrome on your own?? Hehe...

Ok, another good word for palindrome is desserts/stressed.

Since exam is just around the corner and i know you all are feeling tension and stress. Even I myself feel depressed, too.

When you are feeling stressed and about to breakdown, just remember: "Stressed is just Desserts spelled backwards" So it's a piece of cake! Yeah!

Okla, i think that's all for today... Wish you all good luck in the coming exams!

JiaYou! Gambateh! Add Oil! Aza aza fighting!

A song using palindrome:

Thank to Sze Mien for the video clip.

Hope that you'll enjoy it.

Getting started...

2009-10-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

Hu hu...finally, my blog is created...

I've been thinking for about a month whether to create my own blog or not...

I admit I'm a lazy person and I'm not sure how long this blog will last... :P

That's why i hesitate...I hope that I will never give up... :D

I decide to create one at last because Jenna and Yeek Chee encourage me to do so...hehe

One more thing, I need some help from you all to choose the title for my blog...hehe..

Here are some suggestions:

1. Rhythm in my heart

2. Simply Complicated

3. Beautiful Nightmares

4. Different side of me

5. Gie's World of Rhymes

6. Title-Less

Please vote and feel free to comment if you have any other suggestions.

Thanks a lot.

Regards,

angie