Green Apple

Green apple always gives people the impression of its sourness. Ya, it's true that we only taste its sourness at first bite, but actually there is a slight sweetness after the sourness. So not much people really remember or realize its sweetness as the sourness is much more stronger.

Don't you think that life is like a green apple? There is always ups and down in our life. Everyone will taste the 'sourness' at some point of time and the only difference is how much or how 'strong' you got. Like green apple, most people just remember the sour part. I agree that those unhappy moments will always be a part of our memories but have you ever think that how can we taste the sweetness if we never taste the sourness or bitterness. Do you agree? Strangely, people usually think of those unhappy part and forget about the 'sweetness' after getting over those 'sourness'.

As for me, i realized a lot of people around me find me feeling happy all the time. May be i always hehe haha and laugh in front of people. I also don't know why i feel happy in front of people all the time. Is that really me? Yes, i always laugh from my heart out without faking it. It's not like i never have a dull moment in my life but frankly i went through quite a lot also. Not to say a lot because others' situation might be far more worst than me. The point is I have tasted the sourness in my life. So what? I just put it behind and move on to taste the sweetness.

So why bring along the sourness all the time and show your sour face to people around you? It's not only make you feel dull but also make people around you to feel unhappy. True? One way to get over the sourness is to be optimistic. Everything that is happened should have a reason behind it. Just look at the bright side and get over it. Don't just stop there and start blaming. You will feel much more happier living that way.

Life is short. I want to enjoy my every moment of life as we will never know what will happen next. So far I am doing great, enjoying my new working life. I really hope i can spread my happiness to people around me.

Life is like a green apple. You can only taste the sweetness after the sourness. Do you agree? Food for thought!

10 reasons why i laugh / smile...

1. happy...haha

-needless to say, everyone will laugh when happy

2. awkward..

-i tend to laugh when i'm in an awkward situation

3. shy...

-i smile or laugh to cover my shyness

4. speechless...

-when i got nothing to say...haha

-you will find me "haha" a lot in msn if you realize

5. funny thought...

-sometimes you'll find me laughing before i say anything because there are some funny thoughts in my mind. I cant say it out because i keep on laughing.

6. did something wrong...

-i will laugh if i find myself doing something wrong

-thinking of how stupid i am

7. jokes / find something hilarious

-sometimes i cant stop laughing after seeing or listening to some hilarious stuffs

8. seeing others laugh

-yes, i'll laugh when see people around me laugh. Chain reaction?

9. crazy?

-maybe i'm a little bit crazy. No?

10. simple, because i like to laugh

self-made quote: a laugh a day keep depression away!

Laughter is the best medicine!

Lost and Found

No, i did not lose anything. What I mean here is my FUTURE, the path that I choose!

I remembered during my first year in university, I was very confident and sure that I want to be in Actuarial field. So, i fought to major in Actuarial in my second year and i got it.

I took my first external paper for actuary (SOA), Exam P (probability) for the first time during the end of my second year in May 2008, if I am not mistaken. The result was known on the spot and I failed. And that was the wake-up call that this route to be an actuary ain't easy.

So I took it again for the second time in July 2008 (1st sem of 3rd year). Ya, I was very stress because i was really scared of failing this paper again. The result? Passed. Yeah!

Without realizing it, I was already in my 3rd year and I only got 1 paper in my hand. Gosh! Time passes by quickly.

Then, I started to feel lost during my 2nd sem of 3rd year. It was the period when i was looking for a company for internship. I can't find any internship placement in Actuarial Department. Not even a call for interview in Insurance company. Majority of my coursemates also couldn't get into Actuarial department either (maybe M'sia was still not yet recovered from the economy melt-d0wn). I ended up doing internship in Deloittle (Big 4) in Indirect Tax department (not related to my course at all).

Why I felt lost? It was because I finally realized that the demand for Actuary in Malaysia is very low. Also, the exams are so damn tough. I started to question myself. Can I do this? Is it the right route for me? Do I really want this? All sorts of questions popped up in my mind.

Still couldn't figure out what I want, I just followed my coursemates to take the 3rd paper, MFE (Financial Economics) in May 2009. Ya, I skipped the 2nd paper, FM (financial Mathematics) first. Result? Passed. Yeah! I think i was really lucky this time (Studied it in the last minutes).

Passing MFE actually helped me in gaining some confident back. And so, i continued to take FM half year later (end of 1st sem of final year). Yup, i admit, I'm the kind that like to study in last minutes. Hehe...Anyway, the result? Ngam ngam passed only.

In one and a half year time, i suddenly got 3 papers in hand but what's next? I really have no idea.

I decided not to take any external paper during my final sem final year because i wanted to enjoy my last university life to the fullest. Haha. Actually, i was not sure i can get into actuarial field or not.

Come what may, i just let fate decides...

p/s: to be continued...too long already and too tired to continue. i actually used 1 week to finish this post. (>.<)

Lizard, a cat's toy?

Have you ever seen a cat playing with a cicak?? Actually cannot say playing, it is torturing to be exact. Haha...

Today, i went to my dad groceries shop to help out. While i sat down and rest, i saw 1 of my dad's cat (2 cats in the shop) carrying something in her mouth. I was curious and i tried to find out what is it. Then i saw something moving on the floor not far from the cat.

OMG! It's a lizard's tail. It, the tail, moved for awhile only stopped. So geli~~

In the cat's mouth is a tail-less cicak. I thought the cicak has dead but no. The cicak still can move when the cat dropped it on the floor.

How the cat tortured the cicak?? Haha..

The cat would drop the cicak on the floor, let it ran away but then caught it back again immediately and held it in her mouth. She repeated it again and again. Naughty cat!! Don't worry, she won't eat it.

And so, i just sat there and watched.

Suddenly, the cicak ran to my direction. In no time, i lifted up my leg quickly and screamed. I was very shock. This was the first time i screamed my heart out because of a lizard. Now only i realized i am really afraid of lizard.

The cat came to rescue. Haha. She jumped and caught it and walked away slowly. So funny. She was having a lot of fun torturing the cicak.

After awhile, the cat walked back carrying the tail-less cicak in her mouth. She dropped the cicak on the floor again and let it ran. I quickly moved away from the cat.

However, the cicak was no longer alive. The cat waited the cicak to run and prepared to catch it. She still had fun playing with it and carrying it around with her mouth eventhough it was dead.

My dad tried to take away the cicak from her but she just won't let go. She loved the cicak so much. Haha...By chance, my dad got the cicak and throwed it away. No toy to play now, she walked slowly to her food and enjoyed it.

The end of the show.

p/s: this cat not only can catch mouse, but also cockroaches, some bugs and lizards. Good job!

My first unemployment day

Omg, it's already 4am. By right, i should sleep soundly in my bed now.

Actually i feel very tired, but don't know why i still don't want to go to bed.

Yesterday was my first day being unemployed officially. What have i done???

The answer is NOTHING. Am i a rice worm? Haha..

Okla, actually i spent my whole day in LRT and bus. Haiz, really wasted a lot of time.

I went out from my PJ house around 10.45am like that. The terminal bus station has temporary moved to Bukit Jalil, so i have to take LRT to there. From Taman Jaya station to Masjid Jamek, then changed to Starline LRT to go Bukit Jalil. I think i spent about 1 hour like that on LRT.

Then, I boarded a 12pm bus to Penang. It's not the bus from the company i usually took. Damn it, it took 6 hours to reach because it did not go to Penang directly but it stopped at other station in Perak first. Usually, it took almost or less than 5 hours to reach. Haiz, and here my whole afternoon was gone. My mood not very good at that time because i was very hungry, but i can't do anything.

It was dinner time when i reached, so my dad brought me to KAYU eat. He and my sis recommended me to eat Tosai Masala (don't know how to spell). Have you try it before? It's actually potatoes like in the curry puff wrapped inside Tosai. The taste not bad, very fulling.

Afterward, we went to Tesco shopping. I saw LAYS potato chips got discount, so i grabbed 1 ...Hehe :). It's very salty, not good for health actually.

Backed home, i watched TV with my sis. We enjoyed our drama session with LAYS potato chips. Then i watched GLEE for the first time, since it is highly recommended by Jenna. GLEE is a musical drama, quite nice to watch.

Then, like usual lo, online session. I tried to explore some companies and dropped my resume and filled in the application. And so, my first unemployment day ended here.

It's time to sleep. -0-